what should i do (o to ka jo)

when i let you go one step further
my eyes overflowed with tears
when you walk one step further
more tears are falling
as you moved away to a place where i cant reach you
even if i reach out my hand
i cant reach you
i can only cry
what should i do
what should i do
that person has already left
what should i do
what should i do
that person has left me here
i love you
i love you
tried to call you loudly
but you cant hear me because i am only shouting in my heart
all day long i try to forget you
but i think of you again
all day long i try to say goodbye
but i think of you again
when you went to a place where i cant hold you
even if my hand reaches out to you
i cant see you, i can only cry
what should i do
what should i do
youre leaving
what should i do
what should i do i love you only
i love you
i love you
i cry out to you





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whitout words

i shouldnt have done that
i shouldve ignored it
like something i couldnt see
like something i cant see
i shouldnt have ever looked at you
i shouldve ran away
i shouldve acted like i didnt hear it
like something i couldnt hear
like something i cant hear
i shouldve listened to my heart

you showed me love without words
you gave me your love without words
you made me hold my breath
waiting for you
but you ran away like this
without a words love leaves me
without a words love throws me away
what should i say next
my only closed lips were surprised
coming without words

why does it hurts so much
why does it keep hurting
except for the fact that you aren't here
though everything is the same

you showed me love without words
you gave me your love without words
you made me hold my breath
waiting for you
but you ran away like this
without a word love leaves me
without a word love throws me away
what should i say next
my only closed lips were surprised

without a word tears fall
without a word my heart breaks
without a word i wait for love
without a word love hurts me
i zone out
i become a fool
because i cry as i look up the sky
without a word goodbyes find me
without a word goodbyes come to me
i couldnt even prepare to send you away
i think my heart was surprised

without a word it came
without a word it went
without a word it left
like the fever before
ill just hurt for a while
since only scars will be left in the end

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i didnt think it was love
i told my self it wasnt love
i deceived my self
but my heart keep calling your name
i take one step towards you
push you one step away
each time, you grow in my heart
i must be loving you this much
must be waiting for you this much
even though it hurts so much
my heart cant seem to let you go
i think there must be just one love
i dont think my heart will change
the love that i've kept only for you
i can now finally tell you
i love you....
sometimes love, at times tears
even though its hard
sarange, sarange...
i only need you by my side

i must still be loving you
i must still be waiting for you
my brain might be fooled
but my heart cant be fooled










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cry = body relief

org kata insan yang tabah x nagis.. ye ke? tapi biasanya insan yang nagis tgk drama (cth cite korea, melayu, bca novel) xkan nagis dgn mudah di alam realiti.. i was wonder why.. lama dah aku perasan.. and org yang xnangis bila tgk cerita sedih selalunya amat mudah nangis di alam realiti..

nape ek?

and at last mlm ni aku baru taw.. dunia ni adil.. nagis 2 dapat redakan msalah, dpt tenangkan perasaan.. kita akan rasa what a relief after cry.. so thats why org yang xmudah nagis boleh nagis teresak2 sbb tgk cerita2 sedih, sbb bdannya perlukan that relief.. n org yang dah selalu nagis x perlukan that relief lagi as their body mmg dah selalu rasa relief 2...

aku pon mcm 2.. aku xkan nagis untk mslh yang remeh, xkan nagis utk org lain... mcm hati batu, "arwah" bapak aku pon slalu ckp aku anak perempuan yang degil~.. ouuucchhhh... tp aku akan nagis teresak2 bersungai2 kalo tgk cerita sedih or baca novel.. am i need that relief so much?? hahahha... mmg kena slalu tgk cite sedih niii.. :D









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what in my mind now...?

....lately suka sgt jalan2 melawat blog entah sape2.. mesti g next blog.. next blog.. smpai jumpa 1 blog menarik n baca semua entrinya.. diulangi SEMUA.. perangai ni dah lama.. tp lately makin menjadi2 lak..hahaha

....semejak seminggu lepas tiap2 mlm msti rasa loya n muntah.. diulangi TIAP TIAP mlm.. so ask nana amik maxalon kat ward.. nana bwak blik je maxalon 2, terus xrasa dah.. syukur.. mainan psikologi je ko..

....arini cuti, asik main game lam fb je.. sepanjang ari lak 2.. membazir je.. kalo baca buku dah bnyak ilmunya 2.. huhuhu.. asalnya terjumpa 1 game menarik, bingo island.. mcm main binggo msa kecik2 dlu.. tp yg best, semua pemainnya boleh connect, pas2 ade chatbox lak kat tepi, leh kasi2 adiah, leh chat2.. taaapiiii yg paliiiing best sbb diorang sume from oversea.. i got lot of friends worldwide.. colorado, oregon, new york, las vegas etc... so exiting..

.....arini gak terjumpa fb kak tiqah yn jual chocolate, nampak comel aje kotak dari coklat.. rasa cam nak bagi adiah untuk par achik la.. mesti lwa kan?? nnt dia nikah la kot.. tunang ni dah ckup brngnya...

sopd~!

arini ditugaskan kat klinik sopd.. aku jaga bilik 5.. Assist dr ng kiang.. baiknya die.. wlpon MO, tp x belagak.. ckp lembut aje.. ngan pskt pon boleh siap gurau senda lagi.. x mcm dr chin, dah la HO, mcm kerek lak 2.. tp 2 of them plus dr aqyounie mmg best~!! hrap2 esok dpt assist dr yg best mcm td.. tp esok bkn ari jmpa pakar, so ape kepentingan kami kat sana??
p/s: yet lom terserempak ngan balqis lagi.. hahah.. minta2 dijauhkan... amiinnn..
ouhh ya.. sopd mean surgical out patient departmen.. =]

xde tajuk :((

aku geram ++
huhuhuhu
ape punya bengong la peraturan.
mek wong 2 gilo ke? same la ngan ru 2..
apesal lak asrama baru leh kuar g hospital?
kami kat sini xleh kuar langsung wlpon utk beli mknan????
kat sana ade cafe kolej kottt..
kat cini mkn katil besi je ke??
ade otak ke x diorang?
kot ye pon nak hkum seorang, sorang je dah la..
ni kami yg xde wat mslah pon kena sama..
yang wat mslah 2 xpe la ade pakwe..
boleh gak pakwe dtg anta mknan..
xde susah ckit ponnnn/..
kami yang xde pakwe ni terpaksa la berlapar???
nonsense..!!!!
x bertamadun..
ape hak korang nak menyekat hak asasi kami..??

somebody save me....~~!!!

tabahlah hati....
huhuhuh...
no so, no OUTING..~~!!!!
buat aku rasa nyampah thap gila baban~!
apesal lak aku kena terlibat sama..??
show me!!!
am i bad in exam's result??
rasanya xde yg penah fail lagi stakat ni n isyaALLAH seterusnya..
my dicipline?? open my profile file laaahh~~!!! (2 EL coz late to class only)
tapi aku tersangkut sama dlm kemelut yg mlnda..
xadil~!!
a month 2 go 2 sumative exam~
a month that destroy me into pieces...
huhuhuhu

somebody save meee.....

semalam aku geram gilo kot ngan yee..
kecik je aku nampak budok 2..
mjur aku duk krusi blakang,
kalu depan rasanya naik kasut kijo saiz 7 ats muko tino gatal 2...
aku benci die..!!!
xpenah benci org sebegini rupa..
marah smpai muka hyperemia huhuhu..
kalu amik bp masa 2 mesti over 120/90..
kalu main ari2 gini mau hypertension aku.... huhuhuh

dia yg hnya dlm byngan: dah2 jgn fikir pasal 2 lagi syg.. kan i ada.. i always there 4 u.. i want 2 b your handyplast.. 2 heal your grieve, 2 cover your scar... cant i be your shoulder 2 cry??



out dgn perasaan yg gundah gulana... huhuhu T____T sobs sobssss....

tiap2 kali balik dari keje msti stress..
perlukah?????
tapi partner keje mmg buat aku streeeeeeeesssssssssssssssssss gile baban..
huhuhu..
no need 2 story..
just keep for my self only..
yaaaeh, im so stress, but if look at the other perspective, it really help me lot 2 sleep early after work..
thanks 2 her..